Many Sparrows

I am a reader who has always dreamed of being a writer. I have even dreamed that writing was my own personal calling from/for God. You know…that thing He gave me to do. I’ve dreamed of writing something important, of using my God-given talent to make a difference, to touch others’ lives somehow. The problem is that I have never followed through with those dreams. I have never taken that first step (beyond buying the requisite pretty journal to write in, of course). To be honest, I never knew how…never knew where to begin…never knew quite what to write. My lack of action, lack of inspiration, lack of direction- call it what you will- has always frustrated me. I mean come on…if the gift and the dream were truly from God, why wasn’t it easy? Why weren’t the words and the stories just flowing right out of my pen without any real thought from me? Maybe that would have been too easy… So that very lack of action on my part caused me to feel like a fraud in my dreaming, to question the dream itself, to question God Himself. I mean seriously, no real stories and no real characters were walking around in my head, begging to be released (as I’ve always felt they should). What kind of writer did that make me??? Clearly not a good one, in my estimation.

But what God did give me was a title. In one of my many trips through the New Testament in the last three years God gave me Many Sparrows. I even wrote a note in my Bible: “Many Sparrows…an idea for a book title…” Then, exactly two days ago, God dropped the idea of a personal blog in my lap. Truly, the idea was not there…and then it was. It was not an idea I had ever contemplated before. I am not an internet savvy person….I am a regular Facebook scroller who reads the news. I don’t follow any blogs ( but I will now!). I don’t know how to create on the web. Yet, here I am, two days later, equipped with a domain name breathed from scripture itself, from God Himself, on the verge of making my forever dream become a THING! Excited to begin? Yes. Afraid to begin. Yes. Ready to begin? Definitely!

So, just like that, a blog was born. I honestly don’t know what I’m doing or where I’m going, but I’m trusting God that He has a purpose and a plan in all of this. I’m trusting that He is going before me and making the crooked places straight (Isaiah 45:2). I’m trusting Him that He will take my fearful obedience and turn it into something beautiful.